Bits & Bobs of me

go go 'P' power..!!

2011-01-18T03:11:00.000-08:00

some days are easy for me, but then for no apparent reasons i'll have days like today..

on days like this,i tend to face certain problems or issues which most of them required a significant power from me --- "p _ _ _ _ _ _ _"

occasionally, i'm not a fan of myself. esp my inability to express myself. at times, it seems like a flaw or worse, virus which eventually 'eating' me. but if i am to be given an opportunity to alter this weakness, i'd rather say 'no' but instead..i'd beg for greater 'P' power! (:

i'm way far from perfect. but i'm doing my best in everything. it's days like this, days that test me - all the misses, the near breakdowns, the unexplained absence or decline of 'P' power in critical situations, and to be able to overcoming them all, are the joys that mean the most.

All i have to do is keep doing what i'm doing, always upgrade those 'P' power and i believe, everything is going to be alright, alright! (:

understand..

2010-11-15T10:50:00.000-08:00

i understand..
i understand your feelings..
to the point that it hurts...

please..

2010-06-28T08:28:00.000-07:00

please..
dear GOD..
please..
give me strength..
make me strong..
please...
pls take care of all the people dat i loved..
give them endless happiness and bliss them here in the world or hereafter..
let them noe how much i treasured them..

All praises are for you Allah..
I know that you are near..
I know that you have read my heart..
and my words I know you hear..

awes0me rand0m surprise !

2010-06-07T06:13:00.000-07:00

ai cik D~!

im back at home again..rinduye kt umah..huhu

btw..i got a small and awes0me surprise fr0m mummy and daddy! hehe
it was a..vacati0n!

on last friday..they told me dat "we are going 4 perak on d weekend.."
i thought we were just n only going to visit pak ngah there but..there was m0re!

rupe2'y they were also planning t0 take me for a lil oliday..
they said dat i'd been staying at home m0st of the time during d h0liday and gone alm0st nowhere..! so,they wished t0 take me jalan2~
hehe..s0 shuweeettt...of them..!!
>> agak'y dorg kcian tgk i..cyg gk dorg kt i ek..huhu

we went t0 teluk batik..pekan lumut..n so 0n.. >> check out my FB's ph0to album

it was fun n slumber pnye vacation~ hehe
mne x nye..ingat nk g uma sedare je..mental n fizikal xready lgsung tok jln2..huhu
dgn mcm2'y xcukup..n few unf0rtunate, funny yet memorable events~~ hehe

thx pa thx ma~ for everythg..luv u b0th so damn much! :)

still..

2010-06-03T02:26:00.000-07:00

miss D..

me no better than yesterday..
all the shivers n no appetite state are not helping..

1 mango fruit n small cup of pudding are all i had 2day..sadly,dats all dat i can..

but..it's ok.. :) its n0t like i've nvr had anythg far worst than this aite..

be str0ng babe~! u cn d0 it..evrythg will be just finee..

chillex~ ^-^

back again..

2010-06-02T07:42:00.000-07:00

seems like its been years since d last time i signed in here..
i miss u..my lil so called miss D a.k.a diary..hehe

today..

hmm..n0t feelin very well..nearly fall down when i got up dis m0rning..
dun noe why..lost my appetite t0o.. (which, i think,make things worst)
monologue > badan2~ im sorry..x m0la sakit ae..

till we meet again.buaiiss~
salam to all

if only...

2010-04-21T05:25:00.000-07:00

fyi..

whenever me start a sentence using this tw0 words..

it means that me 'berangan'.. hehe

still..let me finish first..

if only..i have a hubby like adam.. (in malay drama - adamaya)

i'll be d happiest woman on d..universe! (exaggerated la plak..)

i'll (pr0bably) hv no c0mplaints for d rest of my life....hehe

such a sweet...n alm0st perfect character..either as a guy or a husband....

pers0alan'y......is there a person which resembles such character in d world t0day??

only th0se yang lucky k0t will hv d chance t0 meet or be wit such pers0n...

'adam' - ur one in a milli0n~

while y0u are sleeping ~

2010-04-19T06:00:00.000-07:00

it a movie title..

while y0u are sleeping..

suweeeettt cgt3 cte niy...

n of c0z..d ultimate reason y i like d muvi is bcz ade sandra bullock..

she looks s0 lovely n awes0me...!!! bill pullman played d her0 part..
he is 'beautiful'.. huhu

its a r0mantic c0medy.. "i think'' >> cz im n0t s0 sure...hehe

here's a sh0rt summary b0ut d muvi.... (its d one without sp0iler)

Lonely Chicago "L" ticket seller Lucy has fallen in love with a commuter who passes her by every day. On Christmas day, the handsome commuter named Peter falls onto the rails and is saved from certain death by Lucy. Peter's family is mistaken into thinking Lucy is Peter's fiancie. Peter's brother, Jack, is skeptical, but very much attacted to Lucy. What will happen when Peter wakes up?

-Rob Hartill

Its a sign...!!

2010-04-17T09:11:00.003-07:00

oh no0o0o0o.....!!!
its a sign..or maybe signs..

~ i've been revising meteor garden + hana y0ri dongo + b0ys over flower..and not once but d0zen times or pr0bably more than dat..!!
(ciap da hafal part mne besh n dialog da k0t..)

~ thinking ab0ut making an outfit p0r my lil kitty c0mot..
(its surprised me myself d0h as i xpndai cgt bab jahit menjahit ni..hehe)

~ berniat t0 have pets such as - ular,ank rimau or singa,panda,zirafah n etc..gaauumm..!!

in a nutshell (miss Shazreen hated dis phrase..hehe..btw..i miss u!!)

im physically n mentally bored..da melepasi thp bhaye >>> (danger2..)
huhuuk..!
(kecian t0l dak niy..)

c0ngrat t0 me..!! aaarrrggggghhhhh~~~~~ *0*

p.s: d worse part is (or myb n0t)..these r only s0me of the signs..n im alredy getting tired of them..huaaaaa~

he's mine! ...or maybe n0t...yet...???

2010-04-17T05:28:00.000-07:00

i came acr0ss an interesting article t0day n wud like t0 share it with u gurls.. (boys pun bley bce gak k0t..) hehe.. enj0y~!

(d article more or less sounds like dis )

How to tell if a guy is still hanging onto his old relationship – and what you can do to help him move on.

- Kathryn H. Cusimano

Do you ever get the feeling that there are three people in your relationship – you, your guy and his ex ??

How can you tell if he’s not really over his ex ?

Tina B. Tessina, PhD, psychotherapist and author of Money, Sex and Kids: Stop Fighting About the Three Things That Can Ruin Your Marriage offers few signs :

(1) He wasted no time before jumping into his next relationship.

If you started dating this guy shortly after his latest breakup, there’s a good chance he’s not completely over his ex – no matter what he says. “There are hopes and dreams we have when we get into a relationship that we lose when we lose that relationship,” says Tessina. “It takes some time [to get over those things].” She points out that men often avoid the grieving process that follows a breakup, even though it can be instrumental in helping them assess the relationship and move on. “You want to be sure he can talk about it – that he can analyze it a little bit, and can say what went wrong and what went right and what part he played in what went wrong.” But even if he isn’t quite there, it doesn’t mean your relationship is doomed. As Tessina explains, “It just means you need to understand that he still has some processing to do, and he’s probably going to do some of it with you.”

(2) He fell for you before his relationship ended.

These are men like John Edwards and Tiger Woods, who tell you their previous relationships are over or broken, but they still go home to their wives or girlfriends. It sounds obvious, but these guys are bad news. “It doesn’t matter if he says the relationship is bad,” Tessina says. “He has a cheating mentality.” And if he cheats on her, he probably wouldn’t have a problem with cheating on you. Even if he does eventually leave his wife or girlfriend – a very big if, by the way -- and you’re willing to give it a go with this guy, he literally hasn’t had any time on his own to process the demise of that previous relationship so you could run into the same problems as in #1, above. Bottom line: This is probably not someone you want to be with.

(3) When it comes to his ex, he only deals in extremes.

If your new guy can’t say his ex’s name without spitting, this is another warning sign. "If he’s talking about her constantly, and she’s either the most wonderful thing in the world or the most terrible thing in the world, but it’s unrealistic, you need to ask him about his role in the relationship," says Tessina. There are two people in every couple, and there’s no way his ex was as great or awful as he makes her sound. "If he’s not talking about it at all, you need to say ‘I think it’s valuable to for us to talk about our past relationships so we can see what went wrong and what we need to do differently in this relationship."

(4) He can’t break the string.

There are plenty of reasons a guy may stay in touch with his ex, and they aren’t necessarily all bad. “If they have kids in common, they have to be in contact,” Tessina says. “If they were together for a long, long time, there’s also some reason for contact.” But if neither situation applies, and he still won’t stop talking to his ex, you should initiate a conversation about her – carefully. “What you don’t want to do is set yourself up against his ex,” says Tessina. Here, too, she recommends talking to him about his relationship with his ex, and what he thinks he can do better or differently in your relationship. She also suggests offering to reach out to the ex yourself, but if he’s not up for that – and if he doesn’t seem compelled to change anything about the current situation, even if it’s making you uncomfortable – that’s a major red flag. “I would slow the relationship down immediately [in those circumstances],” she says. “I’d say, ‘I can’t go further if you’re going to have a relationship with somebody that has to be behind my back.”

(5) He obsesses over the remnants of the relationship.

If he’s always checking her Facebook profile or you catch him poring over old pictures, you could also have a problem. “He’s not finished, he hasn’t done his grieving,” says Tessina. “You have to understand that if you stay in a relationship with him, you’re going to be part of that grieving process.” As Tessina points out, when you’re in a relationship you talk about just about everything. Whether it’s work, friends or family, there’s always something to discuss over dinner, and past relationships should be no different. Let him know you’re open to talking about his exes. Discussing this relationship could help him work through his feelings and move forward – and may even bring the two of you closer together.

s0..de sesape yg agree with Tessina?? huhu..if korg mhadapi sypmt0m2 or signs as above..d key t0 make d relationship works wud be u korg r willing t0 talk or discuss out d issues openly - bout his old relationship n feeling dea kt ex dea..And if, when all is said and done, he just can't let go, you may have to be the one who moves on...

(wlpn perit n sakit sket ar..) hukhuk

alhamdulillah~

2010-04-17T03:48:00.000-07:00

d word above..
can represent plenty of things or events that happen in my days recently..
d nearest example wud be dat im back again..! here in my lil so-called secret 'sanctuary'.. hehe
im also thankful to God dat d exam is over..n im underg0ing my l0o0o0og yet bored sem break..
last but definitely n0t least..my dear lovely ninu is getting better..

recently..
ninu was n0t well..
ninu xde selere mkn since friday last week..
on last m0nday monin..grandpa came t0 my house..
mintak me dtg tgkkn ninu..
s soon s cmpai umh ninu..tgk ninu bring on her bed..she looked s0o weak..
hurm..temankn dea..
she kept saying things dat made me sad..
like t0 tell my mother bout her last wishes or she have lil time left on dis world and etc..
those lines never fails t0 have tears bagged under my eyes..
ninu..jgn ckp cmtu.. T_T

whenever im free or convenient..i always come down t0 hers..
make me feels blissful every time i see their happy smiles and faces ble ad org visit dorg..
hehe..but i understand h0w they feels..
d0rg sunyi..there's always d two of them..n0 one else..
but.. AnGGOT n NiNU.. dun worry.. im here n0w!! ^^
evendoh temporarily..huhu

my musing - a reflection of mine

2009-08-20T23:53:00.000-07:00

alhamdulillah....
tht wud be d exact word tht i'd utter if..
someone ask me..
"how was ur day?"
and if thats someoe ask me "why?"
i'd probably just..take a real deep breath...and smile..
for me..
hurm...
it'd probably take days for me to answer dat particular one-word question..
so much for elaboration..hee~
after all..people do acknowledge me for my special talent in story-telling..
huhu..shame on me~~
but..its true..
and one thing...
will that person be able to understand how i truly feels..
still..
all i can say is that...
life seems to be better and more meaningful to me..
or maybe..all dis time..it has always be dat way..
and that..i just figured it out now...
revelation?? hmm..maybe~
life's beautiful...
theres so many reasons of why we sud feel dat way..
antaranye..
sy bertuah kerana masih diberi peluang oleh Tuhan untuk hidup di atas muke bumi ni...
being thankful...for example..
is also beautiful...and trust me..ia juga boleh membuat anda tersenyum dan bahagia...
as u live..troubles will always be ur frens..
tetapi..
pernahkah kte terfikir..bile kte ditemukan dgn masalah..betapa bertuahnye kte...
kte bertuah...krn Tuhan memberi prhatian kpd kte..
mungkin untuk m'ingatkan kte ttg sesuatu..mungkin jgk untuk mhalang kte dr melakukan kesalahan..
kte jgk bertuah krn Tuhan beri perhatian kt kte berbanding mereka yg masih lalai...
itu jga bermakne..Tuhan sayang kte...
plus, stiap yg berlaku tu..ade hikmahnye...think positive..insyALLAH kte xkan rugi..
sabar..kekuatan..redha..tawakal...
berceritalah kepadaNya...krn Dia Maha-mendengar...
im not saying im perfect because I'M SOoO NOT..
im learning..
its always be a dream fo me to be able to be...di antra mereka yg bersyukur..
i know it is not easy...(for me at least)..
krn slgi yg dinamakan manusia..mereka xkan pernah puas dgn ape yg mereka ade...
but at least we try...yg pnting niat n usaha...
im thankful to God...
Who had created me...
allow me to live even just for 1 milisecond..
for im born in a family that i wud never trade for anything else in this world...
for frens that i adore and care for..
i love them..all these people..so much....
dan untuk segala nikmat yg telah Dia kurniakan kpdku semenjak aq dilahirkan hinggalah kini...
and i pray..
please..God..dun take them away from me...

lets pray together..
smoga kte menjadi insan yg sentiasa bersyukur kepadaNya..
aminn..
selamat menyambut Ramadhan..
dun forget ur 'niah' kay...

^_^

an - unexpected - but - pleasant - start

2009-08-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

cant believe i finally made one..
a bl0g..!
hee~
after all the..
oppressions+free "seminar" on blogs !
by my dearest cliques..
i finally and successfully made one
lihal0h dunya. . .!
heheheh
[ pr0ud seh! cz i can be categorised s "buta IT" gak ]

hope >>
unexpected start = continuous yet pleasant journey

^-^ L0L...!!!!